o man Why do i eat like crap?  I do it all the time.  I know im going to feel like crap later, I know im going to wait up with a sugar hang-over in the morning, and I know im going to regret it; so why do i do it?  Ugh I get all motivated to do better the next day but quickly forget it by morning... yuck i feel like a big fat ol blob.....

background info

Im starting this blog as a place to confide all my thoughts in.  One single place to compile my world and to share ideas and interesting thoughts.  Ive never had success journaling my daily thoughts, but I think this may work for  me.  It feels important and anonymous all at the same time.  Just a little background I guess:  I had a rough childhood but not necessarily horrible-- eventually ended up in foster care and all that nonsence.  I struggle with weight on a constant basis- not like one of those ppl who are stick thin but still complain.  Im pretty fluffy and tend to yo yo quite a bit.  Im married to an illegal mexican who differs widely on his perspectives of the world.  Ive recieved my BA degree in liberal studies and am currently working on my teaching credential.  My higher level of knowledge has created a huge rift between all my friends I had growing up.  My parents are a mess, both alcoholoics and both with there own set of unique problems.  The best part of my life of course is my kids!  I have a wonderful almost 3yr old boy and a sweet 3 month old baby girl.  They have complely changed my life and sent me in  a new direction.  Anyways this is just a quick background bit of info lol trust me it gets better.